Well, it has been a very long time since I have done anything with this blog. It's such a shame because a LOT has happened in my life that I wish I had done a better job of writing down. Life happens. I went and hid all my previous posts for the time just so I can get a sense of starting over new. The last time I made a post I was in such a very different place. Going nowhere in a relationship with someone who didn't give a damn about me. In the span of that time, I found the strength to finally leave it all behind and face the rather uncertain path after. I then found myself with someone who treated me even worse than the last and turned me into the joke of his whole work place. A liar about everything. I gained weight in depression being at a total 320 pounds after that. I was pretty close to just giving up. I was tired of the constant disappoint and humiliation. The universe had a different plan for me. A strange twist. I've had a friend in Mexico since 2009. He's been someone I always talked to randomly and we've always vented to each other about life and helped give each other a shoulder to lean on from time to time. It never crossed my mind that we could really ever really be anything. Things just eventually evolved and over time we decided we wanted to try it out. I flew to Mexico despite all the unwanted opinions trying to turn me away from the idea and from there love bloomed. I love him so much. He's been the sweetest person ever in my life..he thinks of all the small things right down to telling me happy birthday exactly at 12 my time and remembers the day we first became a couple. I celebrated a Valentines for the very first time in my whole life, no one in my past even mentioned anything. No flowers, no happy anniversary, no birthday..nothing. I've dropped all of my weight and got down to 160 from the 320. I finally feel healthy emotionally and physically. I feel loved. Thank you Alejandro.
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